[26 Oct 2005|07:58pm] hey hey hey... so here lately i have been feelin pretty good lots of new, GREAT people in my life... im feeling secure i geuss you could say with who i am and where i am going with my life, makes things easier as far as that goes but i lost my grandfather a few weeks ago...it doesnt really hurt as much as it did but there are still those moments where i think about him and it hurts....i really really miss him....but its good to nkow he isnt in pain anymore well i geuss thats all for now have a good day! 1 comment|post comment

[30 Jul 2005|04:04pm] well, it has been a while hasnt it summer went by fast, its been busy, i miss my friends, i feel like i havent seen everyone in a long time... there are a lot of people that i tried to call but then didnt get up the nerve to, and now i regret it, becuz i feel like its to late....good luck to them though and i will miss them i want to go to europe 3 comments|post comment

[20 Jun 2005|12:07am] [ mood | woop- woop ] [ music | helena- mcr ] hola its padres day! happy to them! i found someone that i think im liking right now....nothin to serious but i talked to him at a party and i hadnt seen him in a while...it was nice but anywho nothing intersting beyond that, so toodles post comment

[16 Jun 2005|12:55pm] CAMPING!!! Sable and I and Paige and Amanda are gonna make SMORES!! That's right I said it... well fun time guys goodbye 1 comment|post comment

[12 Jun 2005|09:48pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | all the pretty little ponies ] so im sittin here with sable.. she is so freakin hAwt!! id hit it so yea, someone is hurting sable ): and it makes me mad...i wonder if he cares so anywho, how is everyone? fine and dandy am i.... "im gonna tear this bitch up!".... 6 comments|post comment

dee dee da dee da do do.............. [31 May 2005|09:25am] [ mood | woo! woo! ] [ music | the hampsterdance song ] well my summer is shot....i cant do anything for the month of june....lets just say i TRIED to tell her to go to walmart, but no..... oh well, we were both stupid but it was fun to say the least right now i am in a good mood...thinking about the bald guy on the six flags commercial dancing to the hampsterdance song which i am listening to at this very moment.....haha, crazy crazy good bye 6 comments|post comment

[20 May 2005|10:06pm] well its been a while since i updated so here goes... monday... took a test that i failed tuesday....took another test that again i failed wednesday...dissected a starfish..fun time thursday...went to the carnival and got fried friday(today)....skipped first period and took another test that i probably failed and that was the extent of my week bye bye 1 comment|post comment

[08 May 2005|04:08pm] so yes...i had a great birthday thanks for calling me ashley well, i guess all this drama shit is starting to clear, which is a very good thing, i just dont understand why she cant just stop talking shit.....i just dont get it, it frustrates the crap out of me...but oh well reconciling friendships is always nice, but i dont know that i can go back to the way things were 2 comments|post comment

[01 May 2005|08:32pm] so hey geuss what............. my birthday is friday!! yay 4 comments|post comment

im going to kick you in your face [26 Apr 2005|09:26pm] i like it when people call from restricted numbers and leave messages on my phone saying they are other people and then saying shit about me on the message....it's nice how they have the balls to say who they are...good job so anywho, my week has been fine i guess i went to my dads and didnt really get to do a whole lot, but oh well, i guess i still had fun so heres something interesting, i just found out that ANOTHER one of my friends has stabbed me in the back and are telling people crap that isnt true!..i mean, i am not saying that i havent done something like this, but saying things about them because you are upset, and just venting about what happened...and calling them fat and ugly and that you are WAY better then them and that they are a slut even though YOU are the one who has slept with who knows how many guys..............are totally different ....this is absolutely ridiculous!!! yea, so that is about all with me for right now see ya lata 3 comments|post comment

[20 Apr 2005|05:14pm] ahhhh!!!!!!!!! i effing hate you! 2 comments|post comment

[16 Apr 2005|11:54pm] hola!! how is everyone this evening?? good i hope.. well...i hope everyone has a fab-tabulous weekend goodbye post comment

[11 Apr 2005|12:49am] so many emotions run through me in a day, sometimes i cant think post comment

i put up a front...will you knock it down for me?? [06 Apr 2005|06:30pm] [ mood | scared ] [ music | whispering actually ] fear....its a terrible thing, but seems to creep up on me everytime i have to go to one of these things...i feel as though i need someone here to hold me and tell me that its ok....but what if its not?? i dont want to go....please dont make me 2 comments|post comment

[03 Apr 2005|09:44pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | -unknown- ] had a fun time in florida, i wish i could move there.... actually, i think i will im tired and had a very very wonderful day because i got to see someone i missed a bunch but then again it kinda sucked cuz i wanted to go to the movies with liz...and i didnt get to and that made me sad goodnight post comment

[27 Mar 2005|01:43am] welp...im leavin in the morning for spring break to florida... i'll miss everyone i geuss, hope everyone has a nice spring break....and if you just feel like it, and have the time, you should call me this week while i am in florida, becuase....it would be nice. i like you and i shouldn't.... post comment

[22 Mar 2005|11:58pm] [ music | death cab ] hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...... i think its funny you think i care 4 comments|post comment

tra la la la la....... [21 Mar 2005|08:26pm] [ mood | crazy ] kiss me, please.... (: post comment

cha cha cha cha cha cha cha, etc....... [17 Mar 2005|12:06am] [ mood | restless ] hello hello... well, i helped one friend and pretty much stabbed the other in the back because i had a guilty conscience(i think i should have stayed out of it, but i couldnt talk to the other friend without feeling guilty.......)....anyway, moving right along.. i am going to tampa, florida for spring break and because i asked ashley to late, jenny will be accompanying me on my voyage...woop woop...it shall be fun so...its pretty late and i cant sleep, i am restless tonight, i wish someone who was restless also, would call me.....oh well... so now i think i am going to try to go to sleep....probably wont...but thats okay i will read (maybe) goodnight 3 comments|post comment

[03 Mar 2005|09:07pm] [ music | whispers ] ever felt like the walls around you were crashing in? like the most ridiculous things seem to surround you and overwhelm your whole thinking and there is nothing to do but sit in your patheticness and cry?? i feel so stupid becuase of this but yet i cant stop hurting, it is crazy you know? maybe there is more to this than i think, maybe its me feeling like i have all these new friends and then something goes worng and i really start to realize how much i miss my only best friend, the only person i am really able to be myself around... maybe i need that more than i think... or maybe its my longing to be held by someone who really really loves me, i know it sounds stupid, but i feel like i am missing it, but im missing something i never had, and i am very afraid i never will there is only one person i have come close to loving like that, and he is my closest friend and i would not ever dare to venture to that level, because i would never be able to measure up to what he deserves... amazing isnt it, i have never admitted that to anyone----ever, i didnt even let myself think it was true till this very moment.... then on the other hand i think that i am too young to feel that kind of love, but maybe i am just looking for infatuation...im not really sure but i am seeming to digress as this entry goes on.... i think i need someone to talk about this with....now 5 comments|post comment

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